To Speak of the King

A Movement of God

So i’m just going to say one “statement” or whatever you’d like to call it, before i start this.
Over the past few years, i’ve been feeling like the end of the world is coming. And it is coming, because it can’t go on forever.
—i’ll come back to this near the end.

Tonight i went to my youth pastors house with all the other youth leaders where we just ate dinner and talked about whats going on. And there’s a lot going on, both good and bad. And i believe that when bad things are happening it is because you are doing something in God’s favour or because God wants you to go through a specific event for the shaping of who you are to become. Everything for a purpose and meaning.

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Now i’m a very calm person. I hardly ever get mad, I’m really not the aggressive type. BUT when i hear about things happening that the devil is doing, it raises some sort of anger inside me. I just feel like screaming and yelling at satan because in my perspective he has no right to be on this earth. To be in the presence of any person who is under God’s jurisdiction. which in all reality is every person who follows God.

So as we talked about whatever was going on with our youth. Mike, our youth pastor, said that he felt as though the world is coming to an end. and its soon.

And so to reconnect with my first statement. I believe we are soon to be in the climax of what is “the end of the world”. There will be trials left and right, there will be struggles in Gods movement, blockages, things getting in the way. We are to praise him and share him with our world because he loves us and wants us all to love him in return. And there is a movement. God is working, people are being saved and healed. The devil is working, but God is countering every move he makes and we need to be in the realization that GOD IS REAL. He is REAL, he is MOVING, he is OMNIPRESENT, He will save this world. As christians we need to holdfast in faith because there will be a day of judgement. Where those who believe in their creator’s love for them, will be called home to live next King of Glory. We will stand as brothers and sisters in faith, and stand with our King and feel his presence like you couldn’t imagine. 

Do you ever worship and feel that tingling throughout your whole body? or felt him run through your veins and you just about collapse? maybe you’ve heard him speak and felt something at that time. Maybe you’ve seen an angel or had one talk to you and felt the presence of God. whatever it is, I believe that home will be like that. It will be a place where its not only that one feeling, but all those feelings combined multiplied by an infinite amount of times. The feeling is indescribable, we will be in an everlasting state of praise and worship for our King. We will feel love like this earth does not have to offer. We will feel fulfillment and purpose. Happiness like you’ve never experienced. There will be dancing and singing and shouting of Jesus’ almighty name. And it will be for all of eternity.

How can i live, knowing that other people in the world don’t know my Jesus? 

Hand In Hand.

So throughout life. everybody has more than good moment, more than one bad moment, more than one valley, and more than one victory. Lately its been on my heart to talk about the valley. 

We all enjoy the good parts in life, the happy times. The moments where our hearts are filled with the utmost joy, we feel like we can’t stop smiling and we’re on top of the world.

This was me a few weeks back. God came in and made everything feel right, everything was going in my favour and i felt so connected with God. I talked with him daily, he spoke through me at a small gathering, music and friends were going fantastic. I felt as though the devil couldn’t touch me. Call me ignorant or foolish but with God as my over-protective father, why should i fear the devil?

Recently he’s definitely tested me. With physical pain, with emotional warfare, and he has definitely tried to attack me spiritually. And i feel as though i’ve been sent to somewhat of a valley. But this one seems different than the other(s). My perspective has changed since the last time i was dragged through the valley. Because of valley’s in the past i’ve been built stronger in faith and trust and no longer do i feel the need to take the easy path. If God is in control, which he always is, then what he is doing with me is obviously for my greater good.

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The valley was always explained to me as a place of darkness and trials. A place where the devil lurks and tests your insecurities or your weakest points. The second you feel a moment of joy or happiness— he robs you of it. He tries to separate every connection with God you have, to make you weak and vulnerable.

 I think its better said that the valley is a place where we meet Jesus. And he faces us with deep scars on his face from the crown of thorns, holes in his hands and feet from the nails, and torn flesh covering his body. Taking us, hand in hand, through thorns and mud. He whispers to us, “we are in the shadow of your victory and i will build you stronger.” While the devil screams at us, “You are weak and will suffer in this valley of death and it will defeat you”. 

We are given the CHOICE who to listen to. And i think its not always easy to go with Jesus, because we want the easy way out. The distorted way the devil has made seem appealing. For instance — cutting, suicide, eating-disorders, whatever form of coping that makes the pain go away.

Without the valley we would be weak and we would never grow. We would never learn anything, we would never know Jesus other than a character in a book. Because who can believe, trust, love and have faith in somebody who you’ve never met. So Jesus calls us in the place of despair and trials where we meet him and where he will one day lead us out.

And throughout it all we need to praise him.
Preach his name.
Give our pains and struggles over to him.
Trust in him and fear will not be in our vocabulary. 

Let him empty us of ourselves and let him fill it with himself.  

Worship through words.

So tonight for the first time, I spoke of God to a group of people. it was 1 minute, maybe 2 so no spectacular sermon but a step in the direction of Gods will. but speaking tonight was rather strange. cause for the most part i’ve only said small amounts of things in general conversations like a sentence or small tid bit of something, or written about it on tumblr. But it was probably one of the greatest feelings speaking of God.

The overwhelming love of God was completely overtaking me. Truthfully, i could barely stand, my legs were shaking. I was sitting at the back before i shared, just thinking about what i wanted to say, or how i was going to say what i wanted to. but i completely blanked. and honestly, God just took over.

From my perspective. I stood there, everything was white. mind blank. and it was just me and Jesus, standing there. Just sharing about a vision i’ve had for a while now. and just describing my vision, i saw nothing but a perfect picture of Gods kingdom. If there were words on this earth to describe this scene to its justifying perfection that it deserves, It would take me an 800 page book to describe its full glory. man. things are definitely headed in the right direction. with music. with God. with life.

Praise God in everything. Cause without God.
What are we, but dust. 

To Hear, To See, To Live, To Speak …

Simplistically its all about God. What you hear, what you see, what you speak, what you think, what you dream, what you aspire, what you want, what you need. Everything should be about God. I’ve found throughout my past that I haven’t really been much of a christian until I had a true encounter with God. I never truly believed in him until he screamed words of prophecy to me, where i insecurely and unfaithfully asked for proof that what he says isn’t just my head and that its real. expecting nothing — 2 days later i get a letter of confirmation, word for word, the prophecy he had spoken to me.

I’m mainly talking about this because i’m considering sharing my testimony to a group of people that i don’t know particularly well. Now in most testimonies i’ve listened to — the story line goes like this.
1 - I was raised in a christian home
2 - I was an average christian, attended church, went to youth etc.
3 - things were great, had good friends, did fine in school etc.
4 - all of a sudden everything went terrible. this failed, that sucked etc.
5 - when i was at my lowest of low and wanted to end it all. God came in.
6 - slowly things got better
7 - ____ just happened and since then i’ve been great and everythings going well.

Now i have no problem with that. But i’ve been thinking about number 5 in that list. the lowest of low — the valley. Why do we not preach from the valley? Why do we wait for our victory? For everything to be fine and dandy until we share. Well because we want to show how things were and how great they are now, and how everything’s great. And how even when things are tough, we get through it with God and he’ll bring us out when we’re at our lowest of lows.

In actuality we should preach from the valley, from our time of struggle and pain. In the book of Job, he has everything taken from him by the devil. His family, his flock, everything. And yet he cries out nothing but praise to the Lord. He was in his lowest of low and still praised the Lord. Where as for most of us, we shun God and try to do it by ourselves when we think he wont come through for us. Because we lose faith in his ability to help us through our struggles. But how could a human, a speck on earth, an insignificant being — be smarter and wiser than the Almighty creator, God.

Follow in faith, through struggle, and speak his word no matter the timing.

“Preach the story.
 Let roots grow into a pillar of trees
 For we have been blessed
 with tongues to pronounce”
-TSAS lyrics

Theres more than this.

I’ve been listening to a few pastors the last few days cause I’ve been a little on the down side. So i just spend a couple hours listening to pastors and trying to get a stronger grasp of Gods will and his teachings, its somewhat of a calming thing for me.

Recently I’ve been strongly struggling with loving a girl who’s so far out of the picture, it seems impossible to be anything more than friends. But its been making me think about the past a lot and the times we’ve had, are having, and are going to have. and how they wash over us, and we dont think much of them until they’re gone. That’s when we realize that we miss those moments.

And how if I miss this girl so much, why do i not miss Jesus this much? Why dont i crave to seek Jesus as much as i want to seek this girl? It seems really stupid and immature of me to want to have a girl that i can’t. But there’s Jesus just waiting for me and wanting me but i just don’t crave it enough to take it.

Jesus calls out to every single one of us every day. Craving our attention and love. But we’re so concerned on our materialistic lives that we miss it. When it comes down to it, we’re all in this world trying to set up our lives. We want the perfect spouse someday, the perfect house, the perfect family. We want to be financially stable, have a nice car or two. Whatever it is you name it. Basically what i’m getting at is that a lot of us have missed it. If we’re living our day-to-day lives and being a christian is believing in God, going to church, resisting sin, and trying not to swear. Then we’ve obviously missed something.

To be honest. i could care less for any of that. and that’s not to say that i dont want a wife, or dont want a nice car, or to be financially stable, or to have a nice house. thats not what i’m getting at. What i’m getting at is simply asking the question— How can i serve in God’s Kingdom of Heaven?

For me. My part in the Kingdom of Heaven is to play music for a crowd of Non-believers. To be booed off the stage for speaking of Gods love. But to proclaim Gods name, and that he reigns King. And serve God with all that i have. If i end up thousands of dollars in debt but have led one person to Christ, its worth it. Even if all I’ve done is sparked a slow growing fire in somebody’s soul. It’s worth it. And i definitely don’t say this to stand above anybody because i dont stand above anybody. Its more of something to think about.

I miss this girl, but God misses me more. He’s waiting for the perfect timing of my story to unfold. He’s just waiting in heaven calling. Saying “Come home son. This is where you belong.” But until i have finished my calling on this earth, I cannot return home. So i guess its just a matter of patience and walking with God through the hard times.

To Be Ready.

So i’ve been thinking about life. and about death.
and about the way i live and think.

There are things in this world that I wish
I could have. But i could never have.
I wont list what it is. But there are things that i just can’t have.
One of which — everybody in this world desires. and almost all
of which, indulge in it. And i’ve leave it at that.

And i’ve been thinking about death.
Sounds morbid. but just thinking about whether i’m ready
and if i’m scared
and if it’ll hurt
and how it’ll come about.
But i know It’s not my time to die yet so I’m really not worried.
I do not fear death, or pain, only Gods holy wrath.

There is a purpose for everybody on this earth, and when that
purpose is fulfilled. Only then, is it time to go home.
But along with the thought of death is the thought of old age.
I dont believe i’ll live to be very old honestly. I think my time on this earth will end much before i reach the age of 70, even 60. I wouldn’t be surprised if i was done at 30 or 40.

But as much as i’ve been thinking about death, i’ve been thinking about life. and the joys it brings. how it brings love and friends and community. And how much i’ve enjoyed the times that have passed, how much i’m currently enjoying it and how much i’m going to enjoy in the future. 

And so, a while ago God said to me, “this is the beginning” and so i’ve been thinking about that, and what it means. i’m still trying to figure out this story that God’s slowly unfolding. But recently i’ve felt that he’s been saying, “this is a new chapter coming up”. So i’m looking forward to it. i have a good feeling about this. He’s told me things about whats coming up and when some things will happen. and i’m looking forward to it. and i’ve got this weird feeling that when summer’s past. Somethings going to change. and i don’t know what it is. but its good. and thats all i can tell. 

All i can say is. Obeying God in everything, in tough and easy times. is probably the best decisions i’ve made. not saying that i’m perfect at all. because i struggle daily. but obedience leads to trust. and trust leads to something beautiful. something unfathomable. It leads to a true relationship with God. A relationship that does nothing but build you stronger, one that loves, encourages, brings you your sweetest victories and in the end. Will lead you back home, where you will stand at the throne with the King. Humbled by his presence and lit ablaze for the kingdom of heaven. 

The Death Process.

So a couple days ago I bought Mattie Montgomery’s 2nd preaching album, The Keys To Open Ancient Gates. In one of the tracks he talks about the death and resurrection of christ. And he said something that really struck me. He said

“Damon Thompson teaches that Jesus didn’t die on the cross so we wouldn’t have to. He died on the cross to show us how.”

And i’m not saying that this is the reason that he died for us. i’m not saying that what he said is true or not. because its just a way of thinking.
But i’ve just thought about that a lot. I mean think about it. He showed us how to die on the cross. How to sacrifice our lives for the benefit of others. How to live a life of full-hearted love to our Father, God. Man I want passion like that. I mean i’m ready to sacrifice any sort of chance i have of having a family in the future, ready to sacrifice financial stability, sacrifice my close friendships if it means i can bring people closer to God. People who don’t know him or have been scarred by the corrupt ways of a friend, family member, a church, or any sort of organization. And I don’t say this to stand on a pedestal. I say this because It’s really shown me how the things i’m ready to sacrifice are NOTHING compared to what the King of Glory sacrificed for us. 

The Hem of his Garments.

Kay. so check it. i’ve been listening to MM some more, and man he just speaks the true word of God. Like, I believe that when somebody has a true and pure connection with the lord, our God, that we will no longer speak the words of our own, but that of the lords. And Mattie speaks it just so purely and truly.

So he talks about the story in Luke, chapter 8,  where there is a woman who has been subject to bleeding for 12 years, and exhausted all her financial resources, nobody could heal her and she had nothign left. 

And i’ve been thinking about that. if i was bleeding for 12 years i’d be sick of it. i’ve had injuries where i bleed for 1 week, and that drives me nuts, i just want it healed. but no matter how hard i try it’s going to take the WHOLE week. now imagine, 12 years of bleeding not knowing when it could stop and if its ever going to stop. thats crazy. think of the faith. think of the strength. think of how desperate she must be.

So she, in full hearted belief in the healing and power of God, crawls through a crowd of people just so she could touch the hem of his garment. 

She was instantly healed.

oh man. INSTANTLY. no, well maybe in another 12 years i’ll heal you. INSTANTLY. she’s healed, think of the relief, the happiness, the thankfulness she must have felt.


Man. Jesus may not walk this earth right now, but upon the return of our King Jesus i will touch the hem of his garment and be healed from all that is unholy. spread it to the world, let them know that his robe extends across the world and all you have to do.
is reach for it.
and touch it.

Oh how sweet that day is going to be.
The future is an exciting place.

The Works of God.

Man. i’ve just been going through some of the testimonies and videos of Mattie Montgomery on his website. and man. God is moving, like for real.
Like i’ve been feeling nothing but the presence of God today. and
man it feels so good.

Like forget everything earthly. FORGET IT.
Gods moving. He’s coming. Get ready, cause its going to be huge.
I can feel it in my bones. Big things are going to happen.
Jesus’ return is imminent.  He will walk the earth again.
and that I can Guarantee.  

He has spoken of his return. and it has been planned
and it is unfolding.
Just wait.

For the return of the King.