To Speak of the King

To Be Ready.

So i’ve been thinking about life. and about death.
and about the way i live and think.

There are things in this world that I wish
I could have. But i could never have.
I wont list what it is. But there are things that i just can’t have.
One of which — everybody in this world desires. and almost all
of which, indulge in it. And i’ve leave it at that.

And i’ve been thinking about death.
Sounds morbid. but just thinking about whether i’m ready
and if i’m scared
and if it’ll hurt
and how it’ll come about.
But i know It’s not my time to die yet so I’m really not worried.
I do not fear death, or pain, only Gods holy wrath.

There is a purpose for everybody on this earth, and when that
purpose is fulfilled. Only then, is it time to go home.
But along with the thought of death is the thought of old age.
I dont believe i’ll live to be very old honestly. I think my time on this earth will end much before i reach the age of 70, even 60. I wouldn’t be surprised if i was done at 30 or 40.

But as much as i’ve been thinking about death, i’ve been thinking about life. and the joys it brings. how it brings love and friends and community. And how much i’ve enjoyed the times that have passed, how much i’m currently enjoying it and how much i’m going to enjoy in the future. 

And so, a while ago God said to me, “this is the beginning” and so i’ve been thinking about that, and what it means. i’m still trying to figure out this story that God’s slowly unfolding. But recently i’ve felt that he’s been saying, “this is a new chapter coming up”. So i’m looking forward to it. i have a good feeling about this. He’s told me things about whats coming up and when some things will happen. and i’m looking forward to it. and i’ve got this weird feeling that when summer’s past. Somethings going to change. and i don’t know what it is. but its good. and thats all i can tell. 

All i can say is. Obeying God in everything, in tough and easy times. is probably the best decisions i’ve made. not saying that i’m perfect at all. because i struggle daily. but obedience leads to trust. and trust leads to something beautiful. something unfathomable. It leads to a true relationship with God. A relationship that does nothing but build you stronger, one that loves, encourages, brings you your sweetest victories and in the end. Will lead you back home, where you will stand at the throne with the King. Humbled by his presence and lit ablaze for the kingdom of heaven.